Playing a Part

I have been doing alot of thinking lately about why I do things. I felt (and to some degree still feel) that I'm playing a part in a play. It's like someone handed me a part "here you can be Mary Lyle. She is a Christian, goes to church, and does all the right stuff." I realized what people meant when they said you have to make your faith your own. I was just doing the right thing beacause that's what I had been taught, not because I wanted to or knew it was right. So when I sinned the "Christian" me knew it was wrong and abhorred it but the "real" me didn't even care if I was sinning. I realized that at least for me, I need to have a logical reason for why I should do the right thing. Otherwise I wouldn't have a defense when Satan tempts me. The ultimate reason why I should do what's right is because I'm supposed to honor God and He asks me to do what's right, but another reason for doing what's right is because when we do what's right we are following God's plan and His plan will give us the most possible joy out of life.